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----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Death is my Bride Its interesting really theirs alot of movies that i hate, just by the stories, and how they are put together, but yesterday i saw one that i accually enjoyed despite it being a crappy soap like chick flick, it was called Saved,
I live only to die, every day when i wake up put food in my stomach, drink water, goto work so i have a roof over my head, thats only to substain myself, i have no goals other than to do just that. my thoughts went down a disturbing path today, acually, it was comforting to me, but my friends would think im insaine.... not pyscotic insaine, but just plain jane nuts, I was sitting watching this movie and started thinking about how i could cure this existing to die problem, and suddenly it came to me, well not exactly came to me, ive been toying with it for a while now, but regardless, it is my dream to settle down, get married, have (or marry someone with) my own kids, to take care of and love, im not going to put all my reasons here, but i belive that is the next necissary step in my and my familys evolution, i know that the day i walked into my house and declare to my parents that im getting married, a fire would start in their hearts, and it would make my mom cry if she were to know that she would be a grandmother. i know that marriage on tv is glorified, but if i could use just one percent of what my parents taught me, about family, i belive that me and my to be wife and son/daughter (asumming they unlike me, acually practiced their parents teachings) would be in a very happy place fuck, why should i justify this to myself, it is the next necissary step to make myself a complete human being, and i desire so much to do just that yours in Love Death and war 6:27 a.m. - 2006-04-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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